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Post by ariana nicole benett on May 17, 2009 22:03:57 GMT -5
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i know but there must be some other word that we can use that
doesnt make us feel worse about being here and doing whatever
it is that we're doing. the word habit actually works because it you
think about it what i do is a habit as well :P a strange habit at that
but still a habit none the less. okay so that might be where our
"habits" are different since i cant really quit. i doubt that but i guess
if you say so :P. yess so consider yourself lucky because i didnt ignore
you today even though if i hadnt mistaken you for a random stranger
i would have continue ignoring you but we will forget about that
for now. gah as much as i hate to admit it, arguing with you can
be fun to a certain extent, lmao ah its not a compliment brody!
even if it does come from me. well im sorry we argue so much that
you have not been able to tell me all of your talents. you better
because if you dont ill.... do something bad xD how are you biased?
and no i have not notice, im sorry that i can be slighlty ignorant.
im sorry if i was harsh but thats just the way im seeing this whole
thing. no i havet been watching you its justm gah i shouldnt be
explaining myself to you when youre the one that im suppose to
be getting mad at. youre seriously telling me that theres not something
or someone that you would change for?
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Post by brody daniel williams on May 21, 2009 16:56:15 GMT -5
 DONTTRUSTME IS TYPING A MESSAGE ,
( is currently humming )
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - let's just stick to problem then, huh? doesn't sound quite
as bad as some of the others, to me, at least. habits can't
necessarily be quit that easily. like a bad habit, yeknow...
like we all have. or no, most do. i -- yeah. i'll shut up. don't
want any more arguments or confrontations and all that
jazz, right? because i know we can have such wonderful
conversations when we're not fighting...and you're not
ignoring me...haha. oh whatever, if you were bored enough
you would've talked to me anyway and you know it. that
shows just how irresistible i am. xD you'll be surprised of
all the things you'll realize eventually. sure, they sound
impossible now, but not for long. okay, let's just stick with
eventually, cuz it might be a while. but that day'll come.
and believe me, when it does, i'll be waiting with open
arms. [: see, i'm just a fun-lovin guy is all! just with...well,
different things. sure, it wasn't meant as one, but i can
still take it that way, can't i? i'm just going to ignore that
last comment. maybe some time we can have a serious
conversation then, huh? and you can hear of them all.
maybe experience a few. [; no, i wasn't thinking about
anything bad there, either. i care too much to put you
through something like that if you don't want it. biased
because my mind tells me that there's nothing wrong
with you. if you ever come up in conversation, for some
odd reason that you would, my opinion will always be
positive, no matter what. no need to apologize. about
any of that stuff. everyone has their opinion, right? no
one's right and no one's wrong, blah blah blah...whatever
the counselors tell us, eh? now you're supposed to be
getting mad at me? where did that come in? D: well...
when you put it that way...everyone has someone like
that, right? and that person...if that's what they really
wanted, you would be able to do anything for them.
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Post by ariana nicole benett on May 22, 2009 23:08:06 GMT -5
JENNI HEARTS !? loves you alot [/color] ------------------------[/color][/center] DECORATED EMERGENCY IS ONLINE !?is currently doing homework -.-? [/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/font]
but i dont like problems! :P haha make a new word for me =D that
we can use and no one will know except us (: wow im making you
come up with an insider for us 0-0 i must be delusional or something
thats true... so maybe it is like a bad habit since well yeah... we're
getting too into this :P hahah well as long as you know that i having
a non fighting conversation would be better for you :P well if you
say so. i dont really know since i havent had a conversation where
we havent fought, except for this one and we did fight a little bit
since you failed to mention your name when you started this im.
no i would not have! if i was bored i would probably have gone to
sleep instead of talking to you. haha you? irresistable? yeah right
xD well i havent realized them yet so i would rather not think about
them at this moment. they sound or they are impossible? because
the way things are always going i would think that they are impossible.
but impossible sounds so much more likely (: ah fine since i cant
make you not see it that way. aren't we having a semi serious
conversation right at this very moment? i mean were not fighting
so that makes it a bit serious. hahah i would rather not experience
anything, thank you very much! you care too much? but its just
me you do realize that. wow that actually makes me feel good for
some reason, it's slightly odd feeling... yeah i guess they do, but
it seems ours are always different. i have absolutely no idea why
im even getting mad or still talking about this since you wont change
and im just wasting my breath telling you that it would be so much
easier if you changed just that whorish part of you. maybe we all
dont have someone like that, because some of us would rather
not..... or cant really have one. i know it sounds strange but you
wouldnt understand why im thinking like that. but i guess you havent
found that person right?
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Post by brody daniel williams on May 23, 2009 9:51:33 GMT -5
DONTTRUSTME IS TYPING A MESSAGE ,
( is currently humming )
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - hah. i would be so amazingly willing to make up a new word
just for us to use. it connects us even more. [: since i just
know that's what you want and all...haha. i wouldn't say
delusional. just..changing your mind. maybe. hopefully. you
know what, yeah, i agree. enough with the depressing
conversation. it doesn't happen too often that i get to have
a real conversation with you without arguing, so i want to
preserve it. save my chance. heh. i dunno, i kind of like
this whole non-fighting stuff. it's..different, yeah, but i like
it. it's nice to actually be able to say something, yeknow.
well, i'm sorry i didn't say my name, okay? people just
generally know that before they start talking to someone.
that or they know screen names and all that. oh, pssh. you
put me over homework, you would put me over sleeping.
well, unless you were majorly tired or something...but that's
different. nothing would go over that. okay, irresistable to
everyone but you then? i agree, sometimes the future can
be scary...especially for people here, like us. you can't know
what to expect. i mean, we could be dead tom-- oh. sorry.
scratch that last comment, please? i didn't mean that one.
oh shit. now i feel like a complete asshole. way to go brody,
eh? i guess that comment made up for the caring one...gosh,
sorry. you can have a go at me, now, if you want to. if it'll
make you feel better. ..so you're saying i won't ever change?
ariana, am i really THAT horrible and repulsive to you? i figured
by now that you'd at least have a LITTLE faith in me...wow.
guess i was wrong there. but yes, i have found that person.
i think. i just need to be pushed more.
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Post by ariana nicole benett on May 23, 2009 16:52:11 GMT -5
JENNI HEARTS !? loves you alot [/color] ------------------------[/color][/center] DECORATED EMERGENCY IS ONLINE !?is currently doing homework -.-? [/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/font]
gah i shouldn't have said anything about you making a new
word for us to use -.- no you're going to think it actually means
something :P haha kidding, for once, but don't think too much
into it, friends have insiders all the time, just friends! well im
not really changing my mine, im just not thinking like i usually
do. gah you really want me to change my mind about this
whole hating you thing don't you? thank you, depressing
conversations make me wanna... well yeah =/ well you should
make this last since it might not ever happen again, unless i
forget your user-name or im super bored again and have home-
work that i would rather not do. different? yeah you're right it
is different, in an unusual but not too bad way. you actually
seem not annoying right now. yeah, im sorry i usually never
give you a chance to say anything its just you're... you, wait
sorry again. well in case you haven't noticed, actually you have,
but i don't really talk to you when im online since im almost
never online at the same time as you, so how the hell am i
supposed to know your screen-name? i don't ask around for it
you know :P hahaha you wanna bet? i would definitely put
sleeping over you because i love sleeping. (: hahaha okay that
works but you should know that not many people find you
irresistible. some girls actually find you a bit repulsive, of course
that was after you slept with them. yeah the future is just so
bizarre and scary :/ ... its okay, you don't have to feel like an
asshole. i mean if it was up to me i would gladly be dead right
at this moment. but i guess someone didn't want me to go for
some reason, someone that probably hates me and wants me
to be depressed. lmao yeah so i don't owe you anything then
:P would it be weird to say that it would not make me feel
better? if would actually make me feel guilty? o-o i cant believe
you're actually getting to me, jeez brody maybe you can do
the impossible. you're not THAT horrible and repulsive but you
are horrible and repulsive enough for me to know that it is
going to take years before you even start changing. okay, so
i cant believe im admitting this, and you better not tell anyone
i said this because i will hurt you, but i do have faith in you,
problem is you make it nearly impossible for me to even believe
in you, especially since you don't even try or anything. i am
actually loosing faith in you brody.... what do you mean you
need to be pushed more?
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Post by brody daniel williams on May 24, 2009 13:48:43 GMT -5
DONTTRUSTME IS TYPING A MESSAGE ,
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- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ...so it doesn't mean anything? man, that's a bummer. i was
gonna make it up all for you, too! well, who knows. knowing
me i'll probably do it anyway. :P just friends...well yeah. but..
wait. does that mean we're friends? i really do think you're
enjoying talking to me and all here, especially if you just said
we're friends. i can be a good friend, don't worry. i can prove
it to you. [: well duh, yes! why would i want you to hate me?
i mean, it's never good to have anyone hate you, but even
worse for it to be someone you care about. i don't really care
if that creeps you out or whatever, cuz it's true. even if you
never accept me, i'll always care about you. you don't have
a say in the matter. [: sorry! sorry sorry sorry! i don't mean
to do that, it's just..what comes out of my mouth. happy
conversations from now on. no damage will come to either
of us. [: believe me, i can make it last. yet another one of
my talents, eh? hah. i'm in a strange mood today, so sorry
if i'm not making sense. i'm guessing that the homework
reason would be the most likely. they sure don't take it easy
here on us, after all. wow, that's a good accomplishment for
me then, if i'm not annoying to you of all people. i'm glad.
seriously, i am. kind of lets me know that i'm not that bad
at all this. it's okay. i know your current feelings about me...
haha. they'll change. no hurry. that is true. oh well. you
found me now and that's all that matters! lmao. well, yeah,
sleeping can be fun...haha. i guess i can see your point there.
-.- well they make me feel irresistible to them at least, then.
they act like i am. little fuckers lying to me. hah. i'll just tell
myself that that's your opinion, that's all. [: yeah, i tend to
just not think about the future. too scary. i really am sorry,
though. i didn't mean for that to come out. it just...did. you
know me. it shouldn't surprise you. ariana...don't think that,
please. i mean, it's not like anyone can change your mind,
and least of all me, but still. that would make you feel guilty?
wow. that's news. i wouldn't think it would stop you, really.
well, not like i'm going to complain..haha. see? i don't always
have a bad effect on people. some people truly and honestly
don't mind me, you know. although i wouldn't go as far as
to call you an exception. it's even on both sides, i guess? or
close to it. ...your faith in me scares me. i expected a little
bit more, i guess. but i can't really blame you...you only see
the..the brody on the outside. i do have a heart, seriously.
no one has ever given me a reason to change, so why should
i? no one's ever shown any interest in the..the old brody. no-
body cared before i was like this. ariana, i was unloved. and this
way, i have people that care about me. yeah, i could change..
i think...but why should i? just to go back to the person i
was, the brody that everyone ignored? i can't be ignored,
ariana. it's not in my nature. i can't handle it like that. i need
to be showed that someone out there really cares, that they
really and truly want me to change. i need to be pushed, yes.
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Post by ariana nicole benett on May 25, 2009 19:29:22 GMT -5
JENNI HEARTS !? loves you alot [/color] ------------------------[/color][/center] DECORATED EMERGENCY IS ONLINE !?is currently doing homework -.-? [/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/font]
ah i don't mean that it doesn't mean anything to me, it does in
a friend way, but i just meant that it doesn't mean anything
more than that, because i know some guys take it the wrong
way. of course you're not like most guys are you (: im okay
with you coming up with the word yeknow :P yes it means we
are just friends as i have repeated many times, not just for
your sake but for mine as well. haha well as much as i hate to
admit this, you can be quite funny and entertaining. and i think
you could actually be a decent friend, just don't let me regret
this, k? :) wait im confused, do you or do you not care? not
that i care... much but it would be pretty sweet of you to
care, even if its a little. god i probably sound strange but its
me so yeah... ANYWAYS you were kinda confusing there for
a bit because you said you don't care then you said you did o-o
or was i just reading wrong? haha whatever xD ah don't be
sorry, im not a child i can handle it... not xD alot of therapy
does that to you :P lol now you tell me you're not making any
sense -.- i thought i was going insane for a second because i
couldn't understand you xD but i cant understand many people
lmao i know! man we cant handle being in normal school but
apparently we can handle a big workload -.- shit i think they
want to kill us with all that work O-O yep, im shocked to say
that for once you seem so normal to me, unlike all those other
times ive talked to you -.- well they've already changed a little
but don't be so happy yet, i can change my mind in and instant
and you of all people should know that, or might know that
whichever (: haha i guess :P not fun but so comforting, when
i sleep i don't have to worry about bumping into you ;P haha
well they are girls, what else did you expect from them? you
should know that some girls will do anything for a quick lay,
well here anyways. way way too scary :S no don't be sorry you
already said it, and i already said that so yeah we should just
forget about it and move on, okay (: im fine really. sadly i wish
you could change my mind, but its impossible... im sorry brody.
wow never thought id be apologizing to you of all people. lol
yeah i know weirdd but im not completely evil either, i have
the ability to always feel guilty for some reason -.- its one of
my downfalls. heheh i wouldn't think that you would complain,
you might even enjoy it :P well yeah im starting not to mind
you, but cant be sure this will stick :P it scares you? wow that
makes me feel good about having faith in you now -.- well
what other brody do you expect me t see, you've never
opened up to me. i mean this is the first conversation we have
ever had, so you can say we know absolutely nothing about
each other which might be why i don't see whatever brody is
on the inside.... i know you have a heart i just haven't seen it.
people would show interest if they actually knew that there
was more to you than just this, all that sleeping around and
being so cocky. and people care now? because if they do then
they have a strange way of showing it. brody i can honestly
tell you that you wouldn't be ignored if you just went back to
your old self..... i honestly hate the bad side of you.... why do
you think i ignore you most of the time. i know at least one
person that would care so much more for you if you just
changed. look i don't know how things were before you began
being like this but i do know that if you changed now people
would like you so much better.... well you say you found that
person that would push you right? why don't you just give
them hints that they need to show some interest for you to
change
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